March 2, 2016
One of the most profound spiritual experiences I have had took place on Monday, February 29, 2016 as I drove from Athens, Ohio to Topeka, Kansas to see my daughter Tori. As I was driving on I-70 in eastern Indiana I was moved to speak with Samuel, my High Self. Samuel instructed me to begin a conversation with Jacob, my Male Self, so I did.
I don’t remember much now from the early parts of this communication, but at a crucial moment my Female Self, Esther, began speaking. The surprising thing was that she was speaking in English, which she almost never does. She usually uses her ancient language that I speak so frequently now. Esther began addressing Jacob by announcing that the time had come for him to accept his true inner nature, which meant accepting his transformation from Jacob to Israel. She then began chanting in a wonderful sing-song way, “You are Israel—accept your true nature! You are Israel—accept your true nature!”
Initially Jacob was both flattered and a little disturbed to be called on for such a transformation. He has known for some time now that his moment was coming soon, but he had never imagined that it would take this form of accepting a new identity, and especially not the identity of Israel. Given his strong condemnation of the colonizing behaviors of the state of Israel and the earlier American manifestations of such Biblical imperialism, not to mention the brutal relations between the early nation and its neighbors in the Bible, Jacob was not predisposed to take on such an identity.
But the remarkable thing was how beautiful the new identity felt, not just to Jacob but to all of my inner selves and to me as a total personality. Jacob, in utter ecstasy, began chanting, “I am Israel! I am a child of God! O am Israel! I am a child of God!” This ecstatic acceptance of this newly-revealed identity filled my entire being with warm light. I believe that I was actually glowing as I soared across the highway of Indiana, deeper into the magical plains of the Mississippi Valley.
Esther and Israel joined together in a new ecstatic union, which increased the ecstatic glowing and the musical round of heavenly song. I could hear angels singing all around me as I was filled with pure joy.
In response to my lingering questions about the brutal nature of the nation of Israel in ancient and in modern days, I was told that the true meaning of the Biblical Israel’s transformation from Jacob had been the marriage between humanity and the Planetary Being. The “Land of Israel” did not refer simply to the place commonly referred to as the Holy Land but to the planet as a whole. Israel was being instructed in his role as avatar for humanity in this newfound sense of being at home, this new atonement between humankind and the Earth. This was never meant as a covenant between a single tribe on a single plot of land but as a unification of the human with Gaia. My recognition of this human-planetary unity filled me with even more ecstatic energy.
I was then urged to remember the moment in the movie version of The Da Vinci Code when the main character revealed the meaning behind the two triangles that make up the Star of David, the downward-pointing triangle representing the female womb and the upward-pointing one representing the male phallus, with the unity of the two signifying the divine unity of the Female and Male Principles. My new experience of the unity of Esther and Israel represents just such a cosmic unity of male and female within myself, a unity that promises great changes in my social being. In fact, this newfound unity within myself as symbolized by the united triangles of the Star of David revealed yet another transformative element for me: the “Star of David,” a universal symbol that pre-existed its association with the Jews of Israel for thousands of years, was originally known as the Star of Gabriel as well as many other names. This, then, is my star, my sacred image that is to guide my mediations for some time to come.
The oddest part of all of this is how much sense it all makes and how healed and transformed I feel as a result. I am truly blessed to receive this new understanding and to be grounded in this unity of humanity and Gaia as a divine syzygy.